random.

these 2 days have been great! got back my A-math test and got 20/30! whoo hooo hooo! i am super happy. but geog results were kinda sad. 27/50. i passed, yeah. but i aim for an A1. nvm... shall study harder for this coming Thursdays geog test. band wasn't tiring at all. in fact, it was kinda fun! :) tmr will be my last day playing the QUADS 'cos i have to pass the 'baton' to another TOM player. :D yeah.

DEAREST QUAD-TOMS, it's been 4 great years playing drum solos on you. i guess for every 'hello', there must goodbyes and as i bid farewell to you, i hope the next master that you serve will be good to you. :'( sorry, if i played too hard on you 'till your skin tear. sorry, if i dropped you on the floor 'cos i was mad. sorry, if i didn't clean and wipe you after i play. and sorry, for not regularly tuning you. hope you forgive me... but anyhows, you will always remain in my heart! :) 'till then, happy getting drummed!

-.-"

anyway, today wasn't tiring at all. finished all my homework in school (except for Malay... HAHA!). speaking of malay, i got 5/26 for my malay test. super bad! XP i so don't know how i'm going to fare for O-levels. tsk tsk. if only the school gave me the option to take malay B. that would make my life easier. ya man.

CME is rather meaningful. it makes you think, reflect and be open-minded. really. today, 'broccoli' asked to predict what lies ahead in our lives. i can't really answer that, 'cos i really haven't really planned ahead yet :P. she also asked us to reflect on our past 17 years and well, i guess there were ups and downs in life. a verse sums up todays CME lesson - "When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future." (eccs 7:14). yup! God did create happy and sad, good and bad. and "a man cannot discover anything about his future" 'cos it's all in Gods hands! :)

hurr... i hope the rest of the week would me as fruitful as these two blessed days.

please don't give up! i screwed up alot of uncountable times! just continue to do your best!

undone.

had a-math test today and my gosh it was easy. working my arse of was worth it. yeah! hopefully i can get like more than 30? heehee... e-math was a pain in the butt with "URGH" and plus the extremely low temperature, my brain wasn't working properly. heh! chemistry teacher didn't turn up today 'cos she spilled acid onto her hands. HAHA! no lah. i love my CHEM-istry teacher. whooots. but i spent the time memorising the solubility table. yay! (jonl: yupp... it's the solubility table! haha!) and Osgodby was busy so he didn't come for English lesson. but i did some a-math revision during his lesson, which was before the test. yay! i think Osgodby should 'be busy with something' everyday, so i can do my own revision on other subjects. HAHA! nehh... i like my English teacher. he's britttttty. :)

anyways, i ate nasi lemak again for recess without ikan bilis! hehh! and after school, i met up with jonL, judith, HH and SY. well, i remember clearly last time, i had this burning desire to start a 'band fellowship group'. but it didn't start 'cos, i don't know... busy i guess. and then today, jonL was talking about starting a fellowship group. judith was okay with it 'cos i had a talk with her once. but the other 2 had 2nd thoughts. after that, me and jonL took the bus home and were talking about it. well, more like, talking through typing our messages on our phones 'cos there were 2 malay girls from our school sitting right infront of us. hehh... well, i concluded by saying, "Gods timing." yeah. well, i guess it's really up to God. jonL: brudder, i know you desire to see the Christians in school to come together and just have this close bond as bros and siss in Christ. yupp! so let's not stop praying and put our hopes in God ya? then it struck me again. hey... the BFG (band fellowship group. cool name ay, like big friendly giant. MWAHAHAHA!) i realize now why it seems so difficult to quit band. there were things undone. firstly, i really have to help my SL and ASL to coach the new sec 1 percussionists. secondly, i can't just leave the quads collect dust. i need to teach people how to play the toms! thirdly, i made a promise to myself that there WILL be a BFG. so yeah! and 'cos i'm in band, it's easier for me to talk to SY and HH! whooo! :D:D so, uh, i hope, this BFG will start soon.

after today, i am really glad that there are other Christians in school who really desire to see their friends being saved. yup. as for me, i know there are a handful Christians in my class but they backslide tremendously and well, eventhough i may not be super close to them, but, i pray that God will work through me. yup!

after school i went to the stadium with my sister. 1st set, i ran 2.4km. then, jogged 1 round, 400m sprint, jog and 400m sprint again. jog for 2 rounds and then stopped. 11 rounds! whoo... and well, that concludes my day! :)

Life of Worship. the life i want to live. :) credits to GALVS and GOD! :)

meaningful.

my weekend have been spent quite wisely. i managed my time properly (rare). really. :)

(oh... new blog skin! yeah!)

SATURDAY: went for National Education Symposium 2007 in the morning. it turned out to be rather meaningful to some extend. had discussions about the N.E taught in Singapore and well, i must say i am proud to be in the little red dot. but, the food wasn't as good as i thought it would be. heh. after the symposium, i met jonnyNG at tanah merah. waited for him for almost an hour. haha! well, it wasn't his fault really 'cos it was a last minute thing. yup. then, we headed down to kallang to get jonnyNG's ticket for the Singapore VS. Malaysia soccer match. but unfortunately, tickets were sold out... poof! sorry man! after that, i knew jonnyNG was quite disappointed. yeah. after that, we made our way to church by taxi that cost $13.20. the taxi driver asked a hell lot of questions!

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service was really... how should i put it... meaningful. well, firstly glad that bryan invited his nonidentical twin brother along. yupp! 1st ever twin brother in WEB! :) at the beginning of the service, i wasn't feeling well (sick feeling). i really don't know why. heh(random.) anyways, yesterdays sermon concludes the topic about 'Boy, Girl and Me'. a really interesting topic to talk about. it was meaningful in a sense that, not only the message was relevant but, as i responded to the alter-call, i reflected on the past ten months that i have spent with God. i wasn't proud of myself at all. a later while i teared, 'cos i never did open the eyes of my heart. and as we sang that song for worship, i tell you, it was super difficult. i knew i was unworthy to sing the song 'cos i haven't been opening the eyes of my heart. all i have been doing is saying 'yes God' but absolutely no action taken. yeah. i was feeling overwhelmed by guilt. on the other hand, i was facing what i call 'critical steps'. things didn't go well for me 'cos yeah, my life is kinda tough. i am all alone (spiritually) at home. i think i am taking 'critical steps' 'cos i'm like this guy, who is standing in the middle of a plank, which is floating in the water. every move i make would cause the plank to be unstable. and when i'm unstable, i'll fall. 2 things are at the ends of the plank. one side Faith, and the other, Family. so, wherever i go, the plank will just go unstable. get what i mean?

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extra chill was fruitful. caught up with a number of people from JD. yup! :) waited for Galvs to finish his discussion with his wg. bla-bla-bla, GOT CHASED BY SARAH CHAN! -.-" and then had a long walk with Galvs. well, thanks kor! :)

TODAY: i went for wg and it was kinda wierd. haha! anyways,


... DEAREST WG, it has been 10 fruitful months knowing each and every one of you. come to think of it, i am blessed to be in CEFC, WEB and in trailblazers. you guys have given me the support i needed and well, though i know i'm kinda the odd-one-out but despite that, you guys still accepted me. i pray that you guys will continue to press on and be steadfast in your walk with the Lord, as we embark on this new journey, multiplied. although i don't really know all of you that well, but looking at the photos collaborated by mark and galvs, i can see that you guys are more than friends. yeah! finally, i just want to say, even if we 'split' continue to "blaze" the "trail". 'till then, God bless! ...

:)
on that note, thanks everyone for the wonderdul weekend! :)

difficult lah... not!

well, week 4 have been great i must say. with everything happening so fast. really really fast! i kinda like it.

BAND: o.m.g, i miss band alot! i went for band practice on tuesday and wednesday and i tell you, i miss my QUADS! whooo! after band - tired to the max! haha! and well, i can say that the band is somewhat stepping into the 21st century now. HAHA! band have always been playing REALLY REALLY old classical songs like 'Valencia' and i don't know... really old songs! (band have been in the 18th century since very long ago!) now we are like playing 'somewhere out there', 'when a man loves a woman' and etc. they are old songs but arranged in the 20th century. haha! like it's "new" in some ways. heh... looking forward to the next band practice next tuesday. OH, and the sec 1's are coming in. excite the moment new percussionists.

WORK: no sweat. have been able to finish up my work everyday despite my tiredness. whooots! yeah. :) thank You!!! like, i haven't been this relaxed even when i am really really tired. yup! :D its true then. if i put my hope in God, everything will be a-okay! amen! :D

oh, today...

hmm... during recess, i ate nasi lemak. you guys know me right, when i eat, i won't stop talking... so, there i was, talking and chewing on my delicious nasi lemak and suddenly, i felt something sharp that jabbed into my gums just beside my left molars. the ikan bilis was really really sharp that it pierced through my gums. i am serious! i did bleed. but thankfully didn't really lose much blood. hurr. i think ikan bilis should be banned 'cos it kills!! really. who knows, the next victim might be YOU! pffft. the subsequent lesson after recess (malay) was double 'hell'. i was in pain both mentally and physically. hahahaha! :P

lina wants to have mass convo later. haha! see my mood. lalala. and YOU! better invite me for your schools prefects thingy. haha! :D

Miss janice, i am sorry if you take the mockeries too seriously. hahahaha! people joking only what... :D hmm... and have fun at retreat. and don't worry about your bio CA i know everythings gonna be okay! :D just continue to put your trust in Him yea? :D (20th feb awaits)

SPIRITUAL WALK: well, firstly, sorry Joseph for not calling you in monday and tuesday. was really tired and went to bed quite early. yup! hmm... i don't know why, but i have been having doubts about stuff that i don't even want to think about. but it keeps coming back and like, it is really a pain in the butt! lots of questions to ask but i just don't know where to start. hurr... frankly, i started my faith quite abruptly. who am i kidding? i was a lost soul! yup. but by Gods grace, i kinda got the hang of it after only say... 1 month? everything that happened after the 1st month passed by really quickly. then, parents found out, yada-yada. thought of giving up my life... (whooops. i WAS stupid.) but by Gods grace, i was back on track with Him. okay. at this point of time, there's is absolutely NO link to the 'doubts'. see what i mean? i don't make sense. hurr.. GALVS, if you are free... i really need to talk to you. :)

wells, on that note, i desprately need prayers. yeah. and uh, see ya. :)

week 2...

week 2 kick started quite well i must say. :D thanks to Mr. Paul Osgodby's patience and well, i didn't expect him to say "it's alright" when i told him that i haven't finished my homework. like WHOA! haha! anyways, as promised, I AM UPDATING! :D

oh oh... hmm... week 2 was 'dignostic test' week (that's how my physics teacher spelt DIAGNOSTIC test. HAHA!) and man i tell you i think screwed up MOST of the papers 'cos i didn't study... 'cos of TRAININGS!! i got back my english and my a math paper and my gosh... i was surprised! hmm, i got 24/30 for my english essay (highest in class *AHEM*) and 5.5/30 for my a-math! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA! yupp FIVE AND A HALF OVER THIRTY. i know im the best. i know. :D haha! well, kinda expected already la. i forgot ALL the a-math formula and tons and tons and tons of careless mistakes. yupp. but anyways, getting 1st in class for english is quite a compliment. :D

let's see. last SATURDAY (6jan07): had my PTT; 5km RUN. i passed! yupp. with a timing of 26.11.1 minutes! whoohoo!
yesterday(13jan07): had my PTT; erGo 2km time trial. i deteriorated big time. my timing from 7.53 to 8.21. damn bad. yupp. so yea. very sad la yesterday. heh. oh oh oh and bryan and ian came to church. :D yupp! glad they could make it and i think they had fun! haha. okay random. anyways, yea... im damn shaked! oh, and i finally gave GALVS the loooong awaited slippers yesterday. :D glad he liked it! yay! GALVS: i somehow knew you like the colour! HAHA! :) hmm... and i guess it's kinda cool to be in an extended family of different people. yupp. shared some stuff with EUNICE MEI last night and well, we are in the same boat. like, we have the same problems and stuff la. :D MEI: after what i've reflected, as in, for me lah... i've been thinking of all the negative points of this person and never looking at what this person means to me. and no matter how this person treats me, i'd still love this person 'cos God placed me with this person for a reason. God put us in such a situation so we can learn to 'adapt' to other peoples environment. yeah! so yea, let's just keep us in prayer and pray for "yous knows whos"... :D

TODAY: woke up at 7, 'cos... 'cos... 5 people smsed me. haha! and yea. haha! anywyas, was helping out at my brothers place (blood brother for your information.) 'cos there's some hair-cutting ceremony (cukur rambut) for my nephew who is SUPER - DUPER - UTTERLY - CUTE! haha! oh, and i had to wash the dishes! yay!-.-". my hands looks like my grandma's feet. urgh. haha! and i had the LONGEST journey home... i somehow sensed that they knew about me and such. so yea. i kinda expected what they want to ask me. haha! RELATIVES: try not to act like you know me. you don't. :)(refering to the general relatives ya. :D)(and i put a smilie there... so i'm not angry. just telling you. okay? :D)(see... more smilies! :D:D:D) i know you guys are concerened. but are you really? aha!

thanks GALVS for picking up the call! :D really needed someone to talk to. hmm, was feeling abit unsure about where my life would lead me to. wait, who am i kidding? i was really unsure about myself. and then. AND THEN. AND THEN! i received a 'friendster-mail' from this girl who i don't know. uh, well, i guess i know her... 'cos im attached to her class during sec 1 orientation. yupp! and omg. from my sad and emo mode, i was like in my CRAZY and SPASTIC mode lah! hurr............................................................................... don't wanna go into deep details later you all say i bu yao lian (don't want face.) ooo.... what the heck. SHE 'grabbed' my photoS... yes PHOTOSSSSSS!!! plural... many many many photoS of me and updated them in her blog. i hyperventilated sia when i saw my pics! -.-""" in case u have no idea what i was doing... here's a video. :D credits to youtube, ebaumsworld, and people who freaks other people out. (p.s: this guy is exaggerating alot more than me okay.) :):D and can you guess what is he angry over? i tell you... i don't speak german. so i don't know! haha! :D hmm... 'till then, BLESSED WEEK P-PHLE!!! :D

oh and hi JANice! :)

unSTILL, unSTIR-ed.

well, my past week have been really tiring. from secondary one orientation, to physical training tests. but i haven't been putting my fullest trust in Him. all i have been doing was telling people how busy i was. thus, not being able to be still. and hence, unstirred by what He did.

one word to describe my self this week : "complacent".

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hmm, let's not talk about emo stuff...

a very late post...

06 have been a really great year for me. have been really blessed by God. yup! and despite the problems i had last year, i am proud to say, i managed to pull-through and becoming someone even stronger. many thanks to God, WEB, my family and my extended family.

06 have been a year where i truely know the true meaning of life. it's not at all about me, but it's everything about my Creator.

06 have been a year where i really stepped out of my confort zone.

06 have been a bleesed year, all thanks to God.

would like to thank those who have made tremendous changes in my life. you know who you are! :) thank You especially!

shoutouts to my kor, mei's and di's:

hmm... JOASH. well, my life wouldn't be the same without your encouragements. yupp. really blessed by God to have you as my brother and eventhough we do have our differences, i still love you as who you are! yup! i pray that God will always be with you where ever you are, and whatever you're doing. hmm... and i also hope you will do your best in swimming and tri and hey, maybe i can see you when i go for SEA-GAMES this year! :) yupp. great to have you as a brother from a different mother! YEAH! :) hope to see you in IB next year... well, i'm not that smart lah okay. hehh. so i still have to like... u know. DREAM about it. haha! :D

and GALVIN kor. heehee! without you, i think i'd be lost. you are one who guides me towards the light! :):):) thank God for having a kor like you man. i pray that you won't be a kancheong spider and be still and listen to God. haha! get it... kancheong SPIDER... who stays still? HAHA! (wth am i talking about. pardon the randomness...) hmm... yupp. i pray that you will be disciplined too and wake up in the wee morning to run! :D yup! haha! love you BRUDDER!!!

and ZEPHY WONG! hahaha! i know i am super mean to you. but mannnnnn i like bullying you! haha! but if i go overboard, please slap me... oh, no no no... cannot. hmm.. just say stop la ha! :) hahaha! but sometimes you bully me alos la! mock me like nobodys business :P anyway, thanks for being a GREAT bro! :) happy IB-ing! and hmm... i REFUSE to sit and watch deathnote :P

and EUNICE! yo sistahhhhhhh!!! whoo... thanks for the great time we had. yup! love you lots lots lots. yeah! and eventhough we slapped, poked, punched, pinched, and bullied each other like mad, i still love you man! and thanks fot the GREEN socks and the cookie monster bookmark! yay! :D

and CHAN! (sarah) burp* haha! got to know you closer since 5 senses. yup. :) lalala... oh, happy DRUMMING! hahahhaa! :)

thanks God for giving me great brothers and sisters who cares alot for me. :)

07 is gonna be fun-ner! yeah! O-lvls baybehh!!!

'till then... TOORAH!

Syahir Ezekiel
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